I am suffocating!

36 weeks

I really can't breathe much anymore, my little one has filled my belly up and I can't breathe, on top of it I have a great cold. But I am getting chlosterphobia( I completely spelled that wrong) really bad, I am freaking a little, I want it out so I can breathe. I love this experience but not breathing is a little much for me, it is scary.

I am also freaking because it is getting really close, I have been watching some movies and techniques to help with the pain, but am I really strong enough to do it? I am questiong myself a lot, and it is not good. We tried to get in some classes but they are booked up until may, so we rented some sweet movies from the library, I swear they haven't made a new one since the 70's, no joke. But they are helping a little, I still am scared. I really want to experience this amazing thing naturally, but I also don't to not be so miserable I not enjoy it. I am just going to keep an open mind and see how it goes, hopefully the superwoman in me comes out, and I am strong enough to do this.

I am so thankful it is getting closer. I hope she comes a little early to be honest 2 weeks would be perfect, I don't want her huge, just healthy. I start the every week appointments now, holy cow, I am going to be a mom in like 30 days, only 3 more saturdays babyless, am I ready for this?

I held a newborn the other day for the first time since I have been pregnant, it really made things feel real, I was thinking to myself, I hardly know how to hold this, how am I going to do it all? I guess it just comes to you, I hope. Rhett was like are you holding her head, telling me to be careful, this is going to be comical to see us together with a tiny baby! I can't wait. I just want to hold her in my arms, and see her look up at me and recognize my voice, i hope she does I talk to her so she will hopefully.

I want to say thanks to all of you that came to my shower, it was so fun, and I got the cutest dang things, I am set for a while, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU. I am working on thank you cards, but I am a little slow, I found some wedding thank you's yesterday that were filled out but never sent, oops, I am good!

My funniest memories....

Reading everyone's funny memories of there friends has really got me thinking of mine. I have decided I was a really weird person, but I had so much fun, I can't even begin to tell you! Here are some funny ones, I seem to have a memory with close to all of you I swear! Here they go...

1. We once snuck into the city pool with some boys, turned it on the slide, and went down it in our underwear. How scary. Brianna
2. We got chased around bloomington for like an hour by some crazy guy who caught us for toilet papering and we all peed our pants we were so scared. Michelle, and heather were there for sure, maybe jocelyn
3. I sat in the car while a bunch of you snuck into Rhett's backyard to spy on him, after his mish, I was so mad, crying and sad, it was hilarious, they almost caught us. I know of Cassidy, Brianna and Rachel for sure
4. We went to San diego, dressed like twins the whole time practically, and told everyone we were twins, what dorks. Brianna
5. We almost got beat up at a stop light by some gangsta chicks in salt lake, cause we looked at them wrong. Tara
6. At a basketball tournament we stayed up all night and pranked a room of other cheerleaders, I pretended to be a boy, the next morning we got to hear all about the boy that kept pranking there room all night. We pranked emily and Kailee's room, my room had cass, and KAsey for sure I think Tara to
8. You witnessed my first kiss, at Michelle Debs birthday party, and saw me cry for hours cause I was so mad, I wanted it to be Rhett, I was a little obsessed with him. Cassidy
9. We hung a sheet in my room and took pictures with porcelain dolls, and thought we were so cute. Brianna
10. We only had one bike, so we taped a big cotton pad on the seat and pumped eachother everywhere. I fell off the back once, rode the tire and ruined my new lucky jeans, they had a huge black tire mark on the crotch. Brianna
11. We were at sconecutter and you peed your pants in the booth, poured ice on it, then the cleaning lady whiped it up thinking it was soda, and continued to wipe all the other tables as well. Kassy
12. I ate all your rice when I came to your house, that is all I did, and I was so scared of your dog. Jocelyn
13. We had professional pictures taken of us at kmart, they were cute haha! Brianna
14. We invented swingnastics. Brianna
15. You had a second graduation at Kaity's house, hilarious! Cass
16.You drank my backwash, and knew it! EEEWWWW Tara
17.I cried forever when I forgot your birthday one year, you thought I was a dork. Brianna
18. We drove my dads car around the circular drive way for hours, cause we were to young to drive anywhere else. I did this with two of you I think. Tara and Brianna
19.We got in a huge fight on our senoir trip and were yelling at eachother cause I wanted to put mascara on!! We fought like the rest of the trip.Brianna
20. You told everyone not to play with me in elementary school, so I would throw moss at people from the gutter, or hang out with my mom! I was cool. Brianna
21. You ran over my foot in the school parking lot, and I said the F word for the first time. Tara
22. We did a sweet dance to backstreets Everybody in the ninth grade talent show. Jocelyn and Camie
23. On the way to state football game in cedar your bug broke down. and we all rode the rest of the way in the back of a truck, freezing. Kassy and Brianna
24. A bunk bed collapsed on you in Brianhead, and you held it up. Another one of you were on the top it was the funniest sight ever! Brianna was on the bottom, Jocelyn was on the top
25. When Rhett broke up with me one of the times, you brought me a little basket of things to help me feel better, I hope you remember doing this, it was so nice. Carly
26. Me and your little sister used to go in your room and use all of your stuff, you would get so mad and yelled at us all the time. Marla
27. Once when it rained we got in our pajamas and rode down the gutters, that is sick. Brianna
27. You took a tuna shot out of my belly button during truth or dare! Tara
28 You threw the phone at me and it broke on my elbow, then threatened to cut me with a razorblade. Tara
29. Once you were trying a stunt I was supposed to catch you when you fell, I didn't and you hit the ground, I cried so hard. This was Jocelyn, but I am sure I dropped Emily to
30. We got in a fight cause I didn't want to wear jeans on game day to school, I wanted to wear my warm-ups. I was always getting in trouble for not wearing my skirt to, I can think of 3 of you that would tell me to take my warm ups off!!! I was a brat or the "bi" they called me. This was cass, jocelyn, Laura, and I remember kailee and emily getting mad at me for wearing my pants! Brynn called me the Bi!!!

They may not seem funny to all of you, but they are some really fond memories that I have, I love all of them, they made me laugh today! I could go on all day, but I hope some of you remember these. I have many more, but am saving them. A lot of them are from cheer, and you all know we did some crazy weird things, we have some picture to prove it. I love all my friends so much, and can't wait to see you all tomorrow.

Baby Stuff!

This is the cute pack and play/bassinett that my dad and stepmom got for us. I picked it out up here at usa baby, and love it. They were nice enough to get it for us. Thanks so much!!! I love it! She is going to be so spoiled with all her good grandparents.
Here are a few outfits that I have so far, not even close to all of them but a few, I made a few of the flower clips to go with a couple of them, I hope she has some hair so she can wear them. I love her swimsuit, can't wait to see her chubber legs in it!



This is pretty close to the stroller/car seat we got, the color is just a little different. My Mother-in-law got this for us, I love it. It is so cute, easy to push, small, and the color is neutral enough any blanket will go, and it can work for the next kid, if there is one, boy or girl. Love it! Thanks Colleen. We are so lucky to have so many nice people to get things for us. We really havent had to purchase anything yet. Our crib was given to us by my sister in law, the dresser changing table we got with a gift card from my dad and wife. We are so blessed to have so many nice people in our lives. My mom is always getting new fun stuff for the baby as well. My sister made some really cute burp rags, along with the baby bedding, (check out her blog to see how well she did) I will have to get a picture of those, they are the cutest! We are blessed!

One word.....FLU!!!!!

Hate it, want to kill it. I seriously think that I could hate nothing more than this. I am sure you are all experiencing it in your own way, I hear it is going around. I luckily caught it, even with a flu shot, oh well, hopefully I will be over with it for a couple years now. I was feeling weird wednesday not sick, weird, then that night, it hit me so fast, fever and the rest you know! Anyway I will spare you the details, but I am better, got a little dehydrated, starved my baby for like a day and a half, couldn't even touch food, but better. I am a major slacker on this blogging thing lately, I feel that all my posts are about the baby, or me being sick. I need some fresh new ideas.

Things I am thankful for today:

1. The burst of energy I had today, and was able to pretty much redo and organize, and clean my entire kitchen.

2. My cute dresser for the baby's room Rhett set up for me last night, I can finally put some things away, it is so cute!

3. BEING OVER THE FLU!!

4. All the years I did my grandma's hair that taught me how to do the "old-lady-do" I call it. I have to do about 10 ladies this week since my boss is in Hawaii. I am the best back comber though, thanks to my grandma!!!!

5.The fact that Friday is approaching very fast! I get to see all my friends and family!

6.My mother-in-law for getting me the stroller-carseat combo I wanted, I love it! Thank you Colleen, Love ya!!!

7. PAJAMAS!!!! That is all I have to say about that

8. Finding out my headaches are not from high blood pressure, toxemia, pre-eclampsyia(cant spell that) all the bad stuff, I am super healthy and it is just my hormones, makes sense since I still have acne all over!

9. I am thankful I was able to see my Dad, Step-mom, and little bro and sis last weekend, was fun to see them. Happy 8th B-day guys! Love you all!

10. Valentines day, that is my mom's b-day and I can't wait to celebrate it with her! Happy Birthday mom! I have learned to love that day more and more, it is a great day to tell the person you love how much you love them over and over, without getting annoying, it's the day, say it all you want!

These are the floors, I LOVE LOVE LOVE them! Yay for my handy hubby! They show a lot but they look so pretty! We have started to put our house and lives back together Halelujah!

Update!

Our house is still under construction, my poor husband has been working his little butt off every night after work to try and get it done, it is a much bigger project than he anticipated, I don't think I can describe the amount of dust that was created while sanding, honeslty, it is crazy! Now he is staining, that is also a huge project, you see all the flaws and it takes a while, we have been staying at my mom's and sister in laws, I am running out of clothes, he has been bringing me some things, but I am ready to stay at my house! Thats the update on our dirty house, and let me tell you the smell of the stain is so strong I am worried about getting it out of everything.

I had a doctors appt. yesterday, he can't really explain the headaches that I constantly have, at night they get even worse, and my cheeks get all red and hot, it is weird! I am measuring right on, the due date is still the 29th and I let him tell me how much weight I have gained, holy moly, bad idea. He said from here on out I will probably gain 1 to 2 pounds a week of fluid and stuff, but I have probably gained all the weight on my body. He obviously doesn't know that my appetite has like tripled in the past like 2 weeks. Before I ate so I wouldn't get sick, now I am just hungry a lot, I don't crave anything, I just eat whatever. I have been exercising more though hopefully I won't be a heffer(don't know how to spell that, just don't want to be one) in 8 weeks! I am getting anxious, he is ok with me trying natural to,I know it is my choice and I am going to try, that is the plan as of now, I know I am crazy, but I want to. We will see how it goes though.

I love when people say what they are thankful for, here are a few things I am thankful for at the moment!

1. My husband for making our house so nice and being the hardest worker I know!
2. My family for letting us stay at there house.
3. Maternity styles, I love spandex and loose dresses or tops, they are so comfy at this time. They also disguise the massive rear end I am growing
4. My sister for the updated photo of my quilt today, it made my day, it is beautiful!
5. Having more energy to walk and exercise, and for sore legs for the first time in a while, I know I did something productive.
6.Cheerios, I eat them dry like all day, love them.
7.Mineral makeup for covering up my acne problems, I would die without it.
8.The biggest loser, for entertaing me so much every tuesday, I love that show.
9. I guess the cold, I can wear my wedding ring a lot more than I would if it was hot, my fingers are smaller when they are colder. There is a plus to the cold sometimes.

30 weeks and a dirty house!

So I am now 30 weeks and 1 day. I can't wait, truly the anticipation of seeing my daughter is killing me. I am so so so anxious, I love her so much already, and don't even really know her. I can only imagine the feeling when I get to hold her for the first time, and see Rhett hold her. I can't wait!!! Here is a pic of my belly, it is growing a ton now, I am huge, I can only imagine in 10 weeks how much bigger it will get. Still no name, we have a few in mind, but we need to see her, then we can make that decision!

This is a picture of a picture, not the best quality, but this is my favorite one from all the ultrasound pics, her little profile is my favorite! I never put any of these up I realized today. I wish I had a scanner, we have some pretty good ones!

I am so off balance I think, that is what I am blaming my numerous falls down the stairs on, I hope it is being pregnant. This is not good though, it throws me into a panic attack, hoping she is ok, and then myself. My elbow is now healing from the last 2 falls, one on carpet steps, the other on my front steps, cement, covered with ice, that is what I am blaming that one on. That was scary, I sat on the wet snowy steps and cried for a while, until my butt was so cold I had to get up and assess the damage I had done. Not to bad actually for the fall, I had just some swelling, bruising, and a little bit of soar back and neck, aren't I graceful. It is sad really, I need to be more careful, I am ok though more embarrassed than anything.

We decided we needed to get our wood floors done before the baby or we would never do it. So our house is a disaster, empty, and dusty. The upstairs is empty, the basement is chuck full of all the stuff from upstairs, and I am going a little crazy. But I know it will all be worth it in the end, we are staining them a really dark brown/black, I can't wait. I think it will look so pretty! I love my husband, he is the hardest worker, he is seriously transforming my house. I will post pics when it is all complete, which I am hoping is in a week or so!! (crossing my fingers).

Thanks to all of you that have emailed my your address so far, there is still a few I need, but I can't wait to see everyone. I went to Jacy's shower on saturday, holy cow, can I just say she looks so cute, tiny, and beautiful. I was thinking only her belly grew, and that she doesn't even look prego at all. It was so fun to see her, and made me way excited.

Last for this post I want to say that my sister is amazing, she is making my bedding for the nursery, all of it. She is so talented, this is her first time doing it, the skirt, bumper pad, and quilt, and she is so good! She keeps sending me pictures, I love it, I finally decided on the colors, and I can't wait to show everyone. I have been painting away at nights to make frames and decorations to match, it is a little different, but I hope it all comes together. I can't wait to hear your opinions! Thanks to Brianna too, she should be an interior designer as well as a photographer, she is super talented. She helped me pick out the cutest things for the room, and she has the coolest thing she is making for me, I can't wait, it will definetely be one of the best parts of the nursery! One more thanks to my sister- in- law Marci, she is helping me make cute little bows and stuff for some of the clothes I have purchased, they are going to be so cute. She is really good at it. I hope I haven't bought to many clothes, I know I will probably get a lot for gifts, and I don't feel that I am going to have a tiny baby, she will need more bigger sizes I am sure, so I have tried to purchase 3-6, 6-9 months as much as possible. I hope she can wear them all, they are so cute! Lets cross our fingers for that too, she will be small!!!!

Fun times!

What a great holiday! It was a lot of fun, went by way to fast, but at least we were able to make it to St. George! We saw friends, family, Rhett wrecked on his four-wheeler and got a fat lip(that is all thank heavens), I wasn't sick, and we had safe roads both ways! It was a nice trip. Here are a few pics of my nieces and nephews, a few of them, they are so cute!



We should have bought Rhett this skateboard thing for christmas, he would have been so happy!




I don't really make new year resolutions, I don't know why I never really have. But here are a few things I want to work on:
1. Got to church more and pray more
2. Keep my house clean the way I used to
3. Complain less
4. Cook more, and better meals
5. Exercise more
6. Get my house finished and fully decorated
7. Read more, mostly parenting books, since I will be a parent in like 80 days
8. Eat healthier food, veggies and fruit mostly, I am the worst eater
9. Be more giving and caring
10. Be more crafty, make things and get a hobby, I will have an old hobby back very soon, all of you that want to run races, I would love to join you!
11. Be more organized
12. Watch less television, it has kind of become my friend at nights when I just want to lay there.
13. Study every day for my test!

That is all I can think of for now, there is probably 100 more things but I can't come up with them right now.

I am trying to decorate my little ones room, and am having a heck of a time. It is so hard for me to make any kind of decision right now, it is sad, ask Tara, I think we spent like 2 hours in the fabric store and left pretty much empty handed. She is going to make the bedding for my crib, isn't she nice, I have scowered the internet and stores for like 6 months and cannot find anything that I like. I want a really cute red and white fabric for the main bedding and there is none to be found, we finally found one that I love but it is in another fabric, it is a square of another fabric, it is really the only one I have liked, and I don't think they sell it by itself, they sell like 10 other ones from that fabric but not the red one. How annoying, so if anyone knows of a cute red and white fabric or runs across some at the fabric store let me know, I kind of want it red with white flowers that are on the larger side. I am picky I know, but I finally get an idea in my head, and now I can't change my mind, it would take me like 6 months to come up with another idea.
Wow that was kinda long and boring, sorry!