I have it!!

I have the internet now, wow!!!! I don't have the hawaii pics on my computer yet, and my hubby took the camera with him, so I will try to do that tonight. I don't know why I am in a hurry, I look miserable in them, but I will post them!!

Here is my little journal entry for the day!!!

Is it normal to feel depressed every day when you are sick and prego? Not only do I wake up everyday feeling like I have the flu, I think that for 8 weeks straight I have felt this way, I am not going to lie, it is taking a toll on me and my emotional state. I want so bad to have like 5 minutes of my normal, active self back. I try everything but nothing works. I love that I am pregnant, but this is taking away from the specialness of it.

I feel like I am going through that weird awkward high school puberty phase. I am growing boobs for the first time, all my shirts that have stripes no longer are straight, the swirl over them, and words now stretch over them, very weird to me, I want my NO boobs back!! It may be exciting to get them if everything else was staying small, but it is not. I attempt to go walking, but for a person who is used to working out and running as much as I did it is not doing a darn thing, all my clothes are much to tight already for only being 13 weeks. I bet I way 200 lbs before I am done. I still can't go to the bathroom, I have maybe gone 5 times total in 2 months, and not a lot. Can I just say I look 5 months prego from that alone, it makes me sick, literally. But nothing is helping. That may seem like to much info, but you are getting an ear full today.

Last, what the heck is with my acne face, eeewww! I look like one of the spokespersons for proactive, the before photo's. Can I just say I have never felt this bad. What is wrong with me, I was like oh it wil be fun to be pregnant, get fat and get boobs, not that way at all, I am freaking out, but at the same time to sick to give two hoots about fixing it. Wow, sorry if this is to much info but you just have to get it out sometimes, and girls tend to understand better than boys you know!!!

On the other hand, our house is starting to come along, I will post some pics, it is slow but sure. I love my husband, he works so hard, and is doing so awesome, I can't begin to tell you how good it feels to just feel secure and to know everything will be ok, in all aspects of our lives. I am not as miserable as I may sound, truly, I love life.
And I love the Rain and cold weather, even though I drive 30 minutes to work everyday, and when snow comes I get really scared, I am ready for sweater and pant weather for sure!!! I loev my back yard, this is a pic of it, it is surrounded by trees and ivy, and I love it, I can't wait to work on it next year!

Hawaii was beautiful!!!

We are back, it was beautiful. I don't have the internet yet it sucks. We slept in our house for the first time last night.We are trying to put it all together, I am so worthless right now, I can't get feeling better. I am now puking a lot, oh well, it will be worth it I just keep telling myself that. It is not like me to let my house look the way it does. We had fun in Hawaii, looking at the pics it may look like I didn't but I really did. It was fun to be with Tara and Troy that much, I feel bad I was a party pooper a lot but we did do some really cool things. I will post pics and stuff soon with a more detailed blog of what we did. I hate not being able to check everyone's blogs and leave comments. Soon I will though!!!!

I don't like being sick

So I have had enough of this being sick stuff. I was pretty much down all last week, with a few trips to the ER to get rehydrated and getting some nausea meds, I am now able to do some things. That was the worst week of my life, I know now that the nausea is not going to magically disappear so I now just deal with it. I am on Zofran to help, and stopped taking the pre-natals I was on, and I think that is helping. Rhett makes me toast every morning, I eat it before I even get up, and that also helps. I know in the end I will completely forget this, and I can't wait for that. I am so excited still and am over 2 months now, I get to hear the heartbeat in like 2 1/2 weeks, YEAH!!!!! We are moving all of our stuff into my cousins garage right now because we don't close on our house until the end of the month, but we will be in Hawaii, a trip that was planned pre-pregnancy, and before we purchased our house, but I am still excited as heck. I just hope I feel well enough to enjoy myself, I think I will though. So that is what is going on in our crazy lives. We are both still working as well, and trying to just keep our lives as calm as we can. Can I just say how lucky I am to have the husband I have, he has taken such good care of me, and I am so grateful for him, I couldn't have done all this without him. Also my mom was such a big help, she comes over after work and helps me out. I feel so helpless, but I just wanted to die for a while, I am sure all you mommies know what I mean by that. I now know what it means to be that sick, you cannot know until you have been there. I am lucky I am better now!!! Thanks for all the messages and advice. I appreciate it, and I will keep updating more!!!!

Our new CASA!!! (maybe)

 

So we are in the process of buying this house, just tying up all the loose ends or what not. I just want to say I am so excited. This may not look like a lot to some, but to us it is the world. Especially for me, I have lived in an apartment since I was 12, not that there is anything wrong with that, but to have a home of my own is the best feeling. I think everything is going to go through, we don't see any reason why it wouldn't, but you never know. I just love it, we definetely need to fix some stuff up, but luckily they have started to do some of that. It is happening at a hard time, I am sick as a dog, and Hawaii is coming up in like 2 1/2 weeks. We have to be out of our apartment before hawaii because we don't want to pay rent here for another month, so we are in limbo for like 2 weeks, no place to live. I will explain more soon, the house is in Bountiful, and I thought I wouldnt be sick with this pregnancy, yeah right, I couldn't work out no way in heck. The puking has begun, and I feel like poo! It will all be worth it in the end right? Lot's going on, stressful, but exciting times, I love life!!!

My favorite post EVER!!!!

I was going to wait but I can't, I have to get it out. I am PREGNANT!!!!!! I am so freaking excited, I still am in some serious shock! We did not think it would happen this fast, we were wrong. Call me fertile Mertyl I guess, holy cow!!! Anyway I found out a week ago and have been dying to post it. I was going to wait a couple months, but if you know me you know that that is impossible. I mean how the heck to you keep in the most exciting news of your life? I can't do it, but now I am a nervous wreck. I never thought I would be this nervous. I am a stress case, and all day I worry, every little pain freaks me out, I can't handle it. But soon this will all be over and I will have this beautiful little baby here to hold and cuddle and take care of forever. Rhett is so excited and shocked all at the same time! We don't care what we have, all we care is that it is healthy and everything goes smoothly. I cannot believe I am going to be a mom, by far the Craziest feeling I have ever had. I want to keep running, and they say it is ok, but when I do I worry the entire time and feel like it is not worth the risk of harming my baby. I am about 6 weeks along, I know that is not much, but can I just say time is already flying. Well this is long and I could go on all day, but I will save your time for your families. Anyway, I feel so blessed to have this experience, this is something I have wanted for so long, and it is finally happening, I can't begin to explain how I feel!!!!! i am so lucky to have an amazing husband to take care of me, and my baby. I have no worries about that, I am so thankful for him in my life, he is truly my everything. On a lighter note can I just say that my boobs hurt so bad, I want to die, but that is really all I feel, a few headaches, but no nausea yet!!! Thank heavens, but I would go through anything to have a baby!!!!

I am boring!

So I decided to take a break from blogging for a while, I am boring and all I blog about is Rhett and having a baby. I promise the next post will be interesting. It is probably going to be a while though, I am serious about this. I want the next one to be good and different!!! Sorry I have bored everyone, I was looking through my blogs and realized that they are not very interesting. I will post as soon as something interesting happens!!! BYE, BYE.

I LOVE holiday's!!!!

I love to spend the day with my family, there is nothing that makes me happier!! On Tuesday night we went to my cousins house and went to a big firework show in north salt lake, it was really good. I love to cuddle with Rhett and watch the show, I always have a blast with my family, they are like my sisters, and there kids are like my nieces and nephews, Rhett forgot the camera that night, oops!

On wednesday, I got up went running, then we went to a breakfast and bike parade at my sister in laws neighborhood park, then we spent the rest of the day with them. The kids go to decorate there bikes, or wagons as you can see, my little niece Kamryn, she is the one in the white tank top, decided at the last minute not to do the parade, that is kids though! We then went to the movie and saw Transformer's, it was pretty good, I have to admit, it is not my type of movie really but I did like it! Then we went shopping a little, and had a barbecue and firework show with there neighbors, about 50 people or so, it was nice. Over all it was a great day, best part is being with Rhett all day, worst part was the heat and my dress, it was like riding up all day, showing off my religion to everyone if you know what I mean, at least I have those!!!

I think I need my own kid so I can take some picture of them, if you didn't know me you would think that these were my kids, I will claim them though, I love them to death, they are all so cute in there own way. The little one Eliana, is getting the funniest personality, I loved that she fell asleep on me during the fireworks, that make me really baby hungry! I hope you all had a great 4th, and I hope to see some pics very soon!!!!