The birth!!! Longest post, sorry!

She is really chubbing up, I love it, she is getting roley!!!


She looks like she is holding on for dear life here!

Well nothing to exciting about my birth experience. I did end up having an epidural, I am not as strong as I thought I was. On saturday night I was having a ton of contractions, every 3 to 4 minutes and thought that it was the real thing. We were right by the hospital and decided to go and checked. They kept me for an hour, the contractions were really coming, but they were not doing anything and were not really painful. They sent me home, I was ok with that because I was not in a lot of pain.

Sunday I was getting some more intense ones but they had slowed down for sure. Every 10 minutes but these ones burned, by like 1 in the morning I was in a lot of pain, I was sure they were the real thing. Rhett took me again, they tracked me for 3 hours this time, the contractions were very constant, but I was not dilating of thinning out. So they sent me home again, I was scared this time though, these contractions were hurting, I thought we would get home and have to come back. I decided then I wasn't going back until I could barely walk. So Monday all day, I had contractions, I went on a walk, had to stop every 3 minutes for them, but I did it, then came home and layed on the couch for hours, by 8 the contractions were hurting so bad, I was humming and moaning, I was like you are weak Nichole. But I had been having these really intense ones every 3 or so minutes for like over 24 hours almost. I was so tired, I couldn't sleep through them.

When Rhett got home, him and I decided it was time to go in at about 9. My mom was with us as well, she drove herself though, she had spent that day listening to me moan for hours. I was so nervous driving to the hospital, the pain was so bad and I kept thinking if they send me home again I will die. They checked me and I was almost a 5!!! They asked if I wanted an epidural, I gave in, I was so tired and thought if I don't, how will I have the strength to push this little one out. It was about an hour later when I got it, I asked for it to not be to strong though, I wanted to feel what my body was saying. So it was nice, I could tell when I was having contractions, but the pain was eased, I rested a little, and by 4 in the morning I was ready to push.

I was so ready, they called my doctor, by the time he got there I only had to push like a couple times, and she was out. He was there for maybe an hour. It was not to bad. I had to stop pushing actually, which is very hard to do. Her heart rate was going up and they wanted me to give her a rest. So at 4:35 they laid my beautiful baby on my stomach, I have never cried so hard, she was perfect, hardly any blood on her, she was amazing, and she was mine. I have never felt something so fulfilling in my life. To look at Rhett then our baby and know we created her together is the best thing that has ever happened to me!!! He is the best dad in the whole world, he is in awe of her, I can't believe how good he is!

We had a little scare right after she was born, they decided to have me try and breast feed like 3o minutes after she was born, she latched on then all the sudden she started to jerk kind of, then she was completely blue and purple all over, I was freaking out, Rhett ran out got the nurse and in seconds, they had her out of my arms and were sucking stuff out of her. She had a big clot of mucus stuck in her throat, I have never seen something so frightening in my life, I felt helpless. It definetely gave me anxiety for days, I didn't want to feed her again or anything, I was so scared, that was the worst image, I hate that I saw that.

Let me tell you the only bad thing about this whole experience. All along I knew that I didn't want an epidural. Now I know why, I forgot about my extremely bad allergy to the tape they use to hold the needles in place, or whatever they are doing. So I had a fever that first night, it broke and I woke up sweating to death, I went to the bathroom, and my back was killing, I looked at it in the mirror and the entire thing from like my bra down was covered in huge bright red rash, there was not one are that was not red and inflamed. The actual are that had the tape on it was blisters, and hurt so bad. So for like 4 days I couldn't sit back or relax. Every nurse that came in said I won the award for the worst allergic reaction they had ever seen, it was horrible. I wanted to lay back and hold and cuddle my baby and I couldn't, it was hard. I still have it, it is just dry and scaby now. I knew I shouldn't get the epidural. I had to go to a dermatologist, he put me on a steroid, antibiotic, and a really tough spray. It is still attacking it and it is getting better. He took a picture of it, he had never seen one like that before! So anyway besides that everything was great!

I am so lucky that all went well we have our beautiful baby here and are so happy!

Her Name

I guess I should explain her name a little, we had a list of 3 names and said we would name her when we saw her. Ever came about in november, I remember seeing it on tv, then looking it up in a name book, it meant always and I thougth that was really pretty, I love the sound of it and the shortenings, Ev, Evie, and EJ! So anyway when she was born I was to exhausted to think about it, I told Rhett to pick, I knew he would pick that one though, we both loved it the most. The other names were Giana, and Scout, she didn't seem like either of those. Her middle name Jacquelle is a mix of my grandmas name Jacquelyn and my moms name, Danelle. I wanted a name with some meaning, but didn't love those seperate. So Ever Jacquelle Yates is what we have chose. We are getting some different comments, some are hurtful a bit, people say they are confused about her name because it is a word, but it is a beautiful word, with good meaning, and we are not changing it, we love her and her name! She is such and Ever, you will agree I think when you meet her!

She is changing so much, she gained a pound like 4 days after we left the hospital, I had to take her to the doctor because she is so stuffy, her poor nose is so plugged, I feel like all I do is stick the blue sucky thing up there, she is going to hate me, I just want her to breathe!!!! We take her tomorrow for her 2 week, I can't believe she is 2 weeks already, she is growing so fast!