THESE WERE THE DAYS!!!!
Right now as we speak I am crying and so is Ever. She is in her crib screaming for the last 30 minutes actually. She hates her crib and it is totally my fault. She is not the best sleeper, she loves to be held and usually needs to be fed to fall asleep and you can't move her she wakes up. She very rarely gets into a deep sleep and she would cry all day in her crib, tired or not, she screams. I wish she would nap more, she takes like a twenty minute nap then like a 30 to 40 minute nap, then doesn't go to bed until between 9 and 10. What the heck, why wont she sleep more. I am reading a book that Lindsey sent me and it is so good. Now if I could only make it work. I am having a hard time doing it on my own. I need to get my hubby to commit to it. He doesn't see her all day so he loves to snuggle and be with her, but I need my time to. I would love for her to sleep in her own bed, all night. That would be amazing. She sleeps ok when she is in our bed, but I don't think that is a good idea.
I was talking to a lady the other day, and she has 4 grown kids now. I was telling her how stressed out I was about the sleeping thing, and she thinks it is not a big deal to have your kids sleep with you. She says look at the pioneers, or just not that long ago, everyone slept in the same room. They only had one room. What is wrong with being near your kids and sleeping together. I see her point as well, I want to love Ever and let her be close to me, soon enough she will want me to go away, you know. I should love every minute of her wanting her mom right?
SEE MY DILEMMA?? I am so torn on what to do. It is making me a bit crazy, sad and frusterated. I hate how I am feeling though. I want to be the best mom, and right now I feel not so good at my mothering duties. I love her, and trying to change her is making me so angry, I know she feels it and it's not fair that I take it out on her. She is thinking why now are you letting me cry all day? Poor thing, I am to soft maybe, I wish I would have trained her a long time ago. Holy cow I am rambling sorry, I will stop. I would love to hear views, opinions, things that worked. I already know I am going to follow the book Lindsey gave me, but it says to make sure you have no travel plans coming up, which we do. So as soon as I get back from STG I am going to decide what I will do. Let her sleep in my bed and wherever she wants until she is old, or get her on a schedule, sleeping from 7 to 7 and having long naps. Sounds like heaven, but getting there is more like hell for me.